Never has there been a something that has everything over me. No addictions. No thing possesses me. No drop of liquid, no powder or pills, no cigarette. Nothing will ever control me. Nothing but my own mind. Fuelled by a sense of freedom.
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I really dig a day off work. Jules and I live for them every week. We make lists and plan our day and message each other with photos of our early starts and activities throughout the day. This time I took a different approach. I gave myself an afro and went on adventures with my housemate and his lady friend. We went to the zoo and waddled amongst the animals and autumn leaves. We went to lunch and then my sister took me op shopping where I bought some new vinyl and clothes and even pineapple mugs. We bought Cloud a yellow jumper, which she despises. We had coffee at Empire and then sat on the carpet and listened to some new music. It’s been a relaxing day. Just what I needed. Now to harass my new Dazed and Confused magazine and lather my sketchbook in doodles.
- THE TIN MAN WANTS MY HEART -
Have you ever wondered how many times you have seen the same strangers and still don’t recognise them?
Copyright Samantha Mullavey 2012
- MUSTARD & PEPPERMINT & SPINACH -
I used to live in a big old house with a huge veggie garden out the back where I would grow silverbeet and spinach and broccoli for my housemates and my friends. I was surprised at how well I looked after he garden and I miss it terribly. Now I live in a house above some shops so I cannot see a patch of grass for miles. I have a huge balcony though and I have began to fill it and the inside with plants. I adore growing things but have little time to keep maintaining a garden. I have always killed the plants due to forgetting they exist after a few weeks. I was once even banned from buying anymore plants on our Bunnings trips because too many lives had already been lost. Now I have restricted myself to just these few plants. I cannot wait to have peppermint for my tea and mustard for my sandwiches. I just hope they make it!!
I like to people watch. If I didn’t have so little days off I could quite easily sit on a park bench and discover who wanders past when I am still. Sometimes I like to watch people in crowded rooms. I find it easy to drift into the noise at a pub and transform it into blur. I watch the quiet people, I watch their faces as they respond to the chaos engulfing them. I can read people really well. I can sense discomfort and unease. I can see worry lingering behind a smile. I am beginning to teach myself to treat others like I would like to be treated. One time I saw the subtle pain a friend was going through. I could see and relate to how hard things were for her. She was so far from me so I felt useless. I hate buying things for people. I find them useless and hold no real thought or effort. It is like finding a stick on the ground and putting it in a plastic bag and saying ‘Here! I got you a present, everyone likes sticks!!’. I prefer to give people things no one else in the world would have. So I made her this necklace. She loves pugs more than anyone I know. I think every so often in life we need someone to do something for us, to make us feel acknowledged and special for even just a moment. I have someone in my life who does this for me every day. I know how great it makes me feel so I have begun doing the same for others.
"We’re all going to die, all of us, what a circus! That alone should make us love each other but it doesn’t. We are terrorized and flattened by trivialities, we are eaten up by nothing."
- Charles Bukowski (via newyorkcitylights)
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How I wish oh wish we had the Internet back. Tonight I have been watching Disney movies with my housemate and his lady friend, while sketching vaguely and filling my head with ideas and images. I’ve been drinking tea and nibbling on pumpernickel bread smothered in peanut butter and honey. I cannot wait for my day off on Wednesday. I’m going to fill it to the brim due to their rarity. I’m looking forward to purchasing my racoon onesie this week and a new vinyl. I’m going to come home from work every day and get straight into my onesie. Life is phenomenal.
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